9 years old

Today...

I was cleaning Keatons room.

I know technically he is old enough to do so himself... but I like to help otherwise things just get piled and don't actually get sorted through.

So when sorting his bedside table I found a small piece of paper taped to his lamp. It read:

Dear Keaton,
turn on lamp.
Love, Keaton


That is all.

11 Months

K+K... Last week you turned 11 months! We were on holidays so mommy didn't get a chance to blog or do your photo session yet.

Kullen, You got tooth #3, ANOTHER bottom one... and I'm pretty sure #4 is close (on the bottom as well, still nothing up top)

Knox, You got your second tooth, the bottom left... which was also Kullens second tooth. You're also drooling like a madman so I'm sure there are more on the way!

You both had your first haircuts! It messed mommy up for a couple days because that was one of the easier ways to tell you two apart...

Kullen - You've been doing quite a bit of standing, mainly when it involves food that you need to use two hands for so you can't hold onto anything. You can now stand up from sitting all by yourself in the middle of the floor.

Knox- You stand too! You've only done it a couple of times but you'll be a pro soon! You're still at the point that when you REALIZE you're standing it scares the heck out of you and you scramble to hold onto something or sit down.
Both of you boys walk along furniture like no ones business, Went on your first camping trip... Figured out how to escape your screen gazebo mom had set up with a rug/toys/playpen by crawling under the screen wall.

There is ONE stair going down to our porch, Knox , you take it head first and slither like a little snake until your feet drop off and you're completely down it... Kullen, you just sit at the top of that one stair and yell until someone lifts you down it so you can be with your brother.

Month 11 has also lead to a new, rather cute discovery. You boys LOVE to sing. La la la la, Da da da da, Ma ma ma ma... If we start singing you will both sing along and it is the CUTEST thing ever.

Asthma

Yesterday was our long awaited appointment with an Asthma specialist for Kyler... we've been trying to get some answers for quite a while and figure out something that would work consistently  for him to no avail... So to say I was excited for this appointment is an understatement.

What did we learn?

-Kyler beyond a doubt has Asthma. (Duh)

-Kyler has a Heart Murmur!

-Many of the symptoms we have been having real issues with, and were told were related to his asthma are NOT.

-His heart Murmur is loud... and she does not know how it has not been picked up before...It also does not sound like a 'normal' heart murmur. The way the doctor described it to Tyson is that most heart murmurs sound sort of like a constant wave... His is very... Harsh I suppose... Don't laugh at my diagram below... This is just sort of how she described what a 'normal' heart murmur sounds like versus kylers.

-She said that the fevers / 120 breaths a minute / elevated heart rate / inability to get his oxygen levels up when he is hospitalized for the Asthma are not related to his Asthma... only aggravating it... and that there is something else going on aside from Asthma here. So I would like to thank all the doctors that made us feel like absolute POO for 'waiting so long to bring him in' every time we show up to the ER with our lethargic little guy... because apparently YOU don't really know what you're dealing with either.


So although we got some very unexpected news... we at least have a game plan now.

Kyler has been completely taken off of his inhalers and will use only a nebulizer(daily) for now. We are waiting to hear in the next day or so when we meet with the Pediatric cardiologist... and when we go for that appointment they will also be doing allergy testing for the Asthma, as well as blood work to check for something related to the possible heart issues...aaaand... something else. I cant remember.

The Asthma Specialist will then meet with some of the other doctors as well as the pediatric cardiologist and they'll all put their brains together to figure out whats going on.

So that's where we're at. I'm crossing my fingers that it's just in innocent murmur... but after googling murmurs and symptoms of heart defects... I would not be surprised one BIT if it's heart related...because out of all the symptoms I've read online... Kyler has the majority. I'll just be glad to get answers...and I'll be even HAPPIER if it's not his heart.

So that's where we're at... Please say a little prayer that it's nothing :)

10 months old

Knox and Kullen, Kullen and Knox... You are TEN months old. I don't know where the time has gone!
Kullen... You just got your second tooth so now have your bottom two

Knox... You have your first tooth... The bottom right... which was also Kullens first tooth... Yours came  a couple weeks after your brothers... so if you keep on the  same teething schedule you should have your second tooth before we know it!

Knox... You just learned to walk forwards in the walker and have such a blast.

You both have the craziest hair right now... I like to call you guys 'the Donald' It is very fitting.

Kullen... You love to hide your face in the crook of mommy's neck and hum along with her...

You both say Mom, Dad and Bob... wave buh-bye... and love cheerios. Today you tried grapes for the first time and it looks like they may be a new favorite!

Kullen... two days ago you discovered the cupboard that I keep the toaster in. You must think you've hit the mother load because a couple times a day I catch you in there with crumbs mashed all over your face chewing on the days finds. I'm sorry to say, today Knox discovered your secret so now you will have to share your stale toast crumbs. Oh darn it!

So many things have happened in these past 10 months and I must say it's been a blast... cant wait to see what month 11 brings

Our twin breastfeeding journey

This has to be some sort of a record...I blogged TWICE today. I know. I deserve an award :)

ANYWHO...If you don't want to hear me go on and on and on about breastfeeding skip this post...it's long...and really not all that exciting...unless breastfeeding is 'your thing' Then go ahead and listen to me complain :) I guess not every breastfeeding journey is a happy one!

So... This isn't really my blogging style but I've got many thoughts on my mind regarding all of the struggles we had with breastfeeding, and figured I may as well get them all out in one place...I apologize now as this is long, but let me go back to the beginning.

TUESDAY,August 16th

*We were induced at 9am... The babies were born in the afternoon... 36weeks 3 days... At whopping 6lbs 9oz and 6lb 15oz. To every ones surprise they were both doing GREAT and didn't need anything (There were problems pre-birth with both babies that led us to induction and we believed they would need a great deal of care after birth)
*After birth I tried nursing constantly... Knox would latch alright... Kullen tried but really wouldn't do anything. I had nursed my other three boys exclusively with no problems so this was a surprise to me... I asked the nurses for help several times and they really didn't listen to me...or seem to care when I told them my 36 week infant would NOT eat.
*I noticed the babies were tongue tied ( I checked for this because my husband is tongue tied) and asked the nurse if that was why we were having issues. She let them suck on her finger and said it was 'fine'

WEDNESDAY

*Kullen still wouldn't nurse. The nurses still didn't seem to see the problem...and pushed formula.
*The pediatrician came to see the babies...I mentioned I was concerned he was not eating... She let him suck her finger and then told me the tongue tie was fine...and was not affecting his sucking reflex despite the fact that he wasn't nursing.
*We were discharged at 6pm.... just over 24 hours after giving birth to twins nearly 4 weeks early

(this is the most scared I have ever been in my life! Driving home... 2 hours away from the hospital...the day after our induction because of problems with the babies... with TWO 36 week infants... one of whom STILL was not nursing... But I figured that the health care professionals know best and wouldn't send us home if they had any doubts about the babies health)

SATURDAY

*Neither twin was really eating well... We were supplementing Kullen with formula as he would scream like we were hurting him while trying to get him to nurse. I noticed both babies were looking yellow and took them to the ER
* Both boys had lost about 1lb! The nurse assured us this was 'normal' and they should be back up to birth weight by a week old.
*We were hospitalized for 4 days for Jaundice and to try to get babies weights up... Since neither was nursing well we were made to supplement them both as they had lost so much weight.

In the 2 weeks that followed we went to the Dr every few days to check on weight gain and thankfully the boys started gaining at a great pace. Unfortunately... as much as I was trying to breastfeed, Kullen was still refusing it and my milk supply was suffering.

Fast forward 6 weeks... full of pain and screaming babies... but I was determined not to give in... I just took it one day at a time not allowing myself to give up and we would get this figured out eventually.

After another unsuccessful breastfeeding session with Kullen, I was giving him a bottle and noticed his mouth was bleeding. That is when I noticed that the tie underneath his tongue had ripped! At the next feeding he nursed like a champ compared to before!

It took 6 long...emotionally charged...painful weeks but I thought we were finally there... we had it figured out and it was going to get easier now!

After that I struggled for another 2 months to get my supply up... The boys were nursing better...I was pumping... took fenugreek... nursing constantly and the boys still weren't getting enough and I was continually upping their formula. They would nurse good one feeding and refuse it the next... screaming like they were in pain..

I decided formula was going to be a part of our life despite my best efforts...and just continued breastfeeding and then topping them up with formula after the feeding.

Fast forward to 9 months old. They had slowly been weaning themselves and just a couple weeks ago got to the point where they flat out refused to nurse... So I cut my losses...patted myself on the back for trying so long...and a couple weeks ago gave up.

Today... I was looking on google...and discovered both boys are also lip tied.

Please tell me where our health care professionals learned to brush off mothers concerns without a second thought. I am so angry that I missed out on what could have been so rewarding all because the knowledge wasn't there as to what the problems were... and when I asked for help was told:
a)Their tongue ties were not the problem... and
b) not once did anyone look for or mention a lip tie to me.

We need to educate moms...I knew all along that something wasn't right... breastfeeding was NEVER that hard for me... and only when it is too late did all of the variables that were running against us come into play. It just really makes me sad!

So if you're still here...listening to me go on ...and on... AND ON...My Point is... Boobies and Coffee(Although I've never actually made it to a meeting...just read the FB page)... Thank you for your group... I learned about lip ties there... Never would have known otherwise...and unfortunately I looked at the babies lips too late... But I want to thank you none the less... It's an awesome group and you're going to help so many mommas!

Regrets

another woman I know with twins recently wrote a post regarding her regrets as a mother... and it has me thinking.

Regrets... what are mine... and do I want to live with any more?

One of the biggest regrets of my life.... Never before have I felt so guilty.. as in the weeks that followed after I found out we were expecting twins. I felt so completely overwhelmed... with 3 children already... time was tight and I was stretched thin doing things with/for them... I couldnt even fathom the ways adding 2 infants to that mix would affect them and my ability to be there for them....

*They had to take a year off from hockey because we just didnt have enough time/hands/money with new babies in the house.
*I have missed numberous family days/plays/presentations at school.
*Keaton came home and told me Kolby was crying at lunch (two seperate times) because all the other families were there and I wasn't.
*There have been MANY nights when I didn't tuck them in or read them a bedtime story
* I missed field trips for prenatal appointments... Their Christmas concert because I was in the hospital with Knox
*There has been homework left undone, tests failed at school, hot lunch orders missed... all because mom was so busy and forgot, or couldnt help them to study.
*We had to move to a bigger place... leaving their friends in the old neighborhood...and starting next year... Leaving all of their friends and switching to a new school.

It's been a whirlwind of a (almost) first year... and without much for help there have been a lot of things that my big boys had to miss out on... And now that I look back on it... as sad as it makes me that I couldnt be there for them in the way I wanted to and used to be... I'm also filled with SO MUCH JOY... because I look at how much those big boys love those babies... I look at how much fun they have pushing them in the stroller or holding their hands to help them walk...and I know that none of that other stuff counts. That is not the stuff they will remember. Our family is complete... Mom is a little scatterbrained... our days are busy... and they have to help out more than I'm sure any other 5,7 and 9 year old do... But they're happy... the babies are happy... I'm happy... and that's all that matters. No matter how many things don't go my way, or I wish I could do differently... as long as I have 5 smiling little faces every day I dont care how dirty my floors are or how many library books I lose... We've got the best gift of all. Each other.

When life looks down,
when times get tough,
when things don't go your way...

Take those times,
take those moments,
and save them for a better day.

Let them be your guiding light,
they'll help you go a ways...

Don't let life's drops take you down,
just let them pave your way.

-Elisha Hawryluk-



It's cheesy... But life can give you lemons and you can either pucker up your lips and put a sour look on your face... or you can make some DELICIOUS lemonade and get on with it.

Life doesn't go exactly according to any ones plan.

If it did, I would be a Lawyer, only would have been married 3 years, and would have just had baby number 2. That was my life 'plan'.

God had something else in store...and despite the absolute chaos and exhaustion that consumes me every day... I thank him... because I could not have dreamed up a better life for myself... Bad days and all.

I have a HUGE beautiful family...5 amazing little men, a husband that infuriates me beyond belief, but also makes me giggle, supports me, and loves me to no end, and a job that could not be more perfect for me.

If you're having a bad day today, just take a moment and think of something that makes you happy... If everyone focused on being happy as much as many focus on complaining about the bad times, this world would be such a wonderful place!

Bad Dreams

You know the nightmare, where you wake in the middle of the night to find someone hovering ominously over you from right beside your bed... just staring at you creepily while you sleep...and you wake up and scream because you're sure you're about to be stabbed?

Yeah?

That one.

Well It happens here at least once a week... Keaton apparently like to scare the living heck out of me rather than saying something like "Hey, Mom...wake up"

Out of the mouths of babes

Kyler:
Mom, Do you know what milk and water turn into?

Me:
What? Milky water?

Kyler:
No, Poison water puke.

I love you...

This is a thing I do almost daily in real life...

and I thought it might be fun/cute to document it here as well.

I have this thing where each day I tell someone...

someTHING...

that I love them more than.

It's just another way to let my little men know how much I love them, but also to do it in a goofy way.

Keaton: I love you more than canned ham.

Kyler: I love you more than 'The Notebook'

Kolby: I love you more than candlelight bubble baths.

When Kolby was 3 I caught him trying to fish candy out of the garbage can at the hockey arena.

Not embarrassing

AT.ALL.

Just thought I'd document that little tidbit ;)

EVERY.SINGLE.MORNING.

Laying in bed, I hear it first in the distance.

A soft thud.

I strain my ears because I know what is coming.

Thud, thud, thud... the quiet footsteps grow louder.

I can hear the pitch of the steps change as they move from the soft carpet to the cool linoleum, and then back to carpet.

He is getting close now.

Waiting patiently, I can finally hear his breathing as he enters my room. Moving silently from the door to my bedside, straining his eyes to see in the darkness.

He carries the softest blue blanket, usually a couple pieces of lego, and as always... his hair stands on end atop his head. I wait for it, as the thinks I am still asleep.

"Mommy" hes whispers so softly that even I can hardly hear.

"Mommy"

"can I be awake if I promise to be thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis quiet" he says, stretching his tiny arms out as far as he possibly can to either side.

"Yes baby. " I reply.

"oooh, kay" He says in a sing song voice, and then he is off.



This is how my day starts...
EVERY.SINGLE.MORNING.

Love you Kolby Andrew!

August 20, 2011

It is January 23rd today, and I'm still trying to document what I can remember from the babies first months, I've been far too busy until now, so I just hope my memory doesn't fail me! I'll put all the posts in chronological order still, so that they're easier to follow :)


I took Knox and Kullen to the ER because they were quite Jaundiced. This was the start of a 4 day stay in the hospital, under the Billi lights for both of the boys... By the end of our hospital stay they had both lost over 1lb and were the skinniest little peanuts I ever did see!



Cliff Note version:

Kullen was down to 5lbs 9oz, and Knox was down to 5lbs 11oz when we were released from the hospital. We started them both on formula now -to get their weights up, but still breastfed too.

Knox's first night under the lights resulted in mom getting a whopping 15 minutes of sleep, every time the poor little guy moved in there he would freak himself out and flail around ... I ended up having to 'restrain him'

Sunday night after asking the nurses SEVERAL times if we could test Kullens Billi again, because he was more yellow now than Knox... Tyson finally came in and took him down to the ER. His Billi was through the roof, and into the lights he went as well.

I just remember how TINY you guys looked in those big incubators, all naked except for your styling shades...

AUGUST 17,2011 One day old

Well. It is January 2012, and I'm still trying to document the early days after babies arrived... so this is going to be the cliff notes version of Knox and Kullen, Day 1

-Knox had a little trouble breathing just after birth and had to have some 'Kangaroo time' with momma, I didn't mind one bit!

-Boys boys got to room in with me that first night!

-Found out they are AB-

-Had their blood sugar monitored several times a day

-Kullen had the first bath...Mommy missed it but was told he did not like it one bit...Knox seemed to enjoy his

-Both of you had to have car seat tests done to make sure they could keep their O2 sats up well enough in their seats so we could leave the hospital

-Knox was a great eater but quite sleepy... Kullen refused to eat... also very sleepy...and the nurses refused to help me... or listen to me that you were NOT eating AT ALL. I discovered you were BOTH tongue tied...asked several medical professionals, and they ALL said it wasn't a problem...despite the fact that you wouldn't eat...The nurses pushed formula rather than help me get you to latch/ stay awake for a feeding.

-At one point both babies were being quite fussy, so I put them naked, side by side, and wrapped them together...they snuggled up to one another and calmed right down

-6:00pm , February 17...approx 26 hours after you were born... We were released from the hospital...You guys were rock stars! I have never been more excited or terrified of anything in my life, than that 3 hour trek home with two 36 week infants. Yikes!

Happy Birthday!

August 16, 2011

5:00am: Woke up to get ready for the day

6:00am: Grandma arrives to follow us to the hospital, we head out

8:45am: Arrive at the hospital and are escorted to the Induction area.

10:00am: Have a cervix check prior to starting the induction. I am already 4 centimeters!!

10:30am: We're all checked into our labor and delivery room, We have met our Doctors, Dr. Tsui and I believe Dr.Campbell. As well as our Nurse Laura, and met a couple people that will be on the babies NICU teams. Laura starts me on a drug to induce labor. Starts with an O. cant remember the name.

12:00pm: I get my epidural BEFORE the pain even gets bad. Can anyone say AWESOME!? They do another cervical check and I am only 5cm. At this point I'm discouraged and think this is going to be one LONG labor as I've only went 1cm and contractions were almost constant. I think this is also the point where they break baby A's water.

From here on out I don't remember times... There was music on the radio... a couple foot rubs... and Laura was kind enough to let me chew gum even though I wasn't supposed to in case we ended up needing a C-section. At one point Baby A was having some decels so almost instantly the room filled with people. they put one of those little monitors onto his scalp... and everything looked perfect once again. Turns out, Baby A just wanted Laura's attention. I kid you not. EVERY SINGLE TIME she left the room he would have a decel and the alarms would start ringing... If she stayed in the room, all was good!

3:30pm: after staying 30 minutes past the end of her shift Laura finally left after determining babies were going to be stubborn and NOT be born during her shift. Literally 5 minutes after Laura left I told our new nurse (sorry, her name escapes me right now) That I was starting to feel some pressure. a few minutes later Dr Tsui was in the room and doing a check. I was 10cm! She asked me to give just a little push and see what happens...at which point she excitedly tells me to stop NOW unless I want baby A born right here right now, without any of the other doctors or the NICU teams!

3:40pm: the people start to flood in, there is a flurry of activity as both NICU teams prepare for the babies and both Doctors get all of their gear on and get the bed ready for me to push.

I'm going to guess here and say 3:45pm... they tell me to push with the next contraction.. I think I pushed twice during that contraction and Kullen Benjamin was born at 3:47pm... All I could say is 'Does he EVER look like Kyler'

I didn't get a chance to hold him right away as the NICU staff whisked him away to assess him (he was the anemic twin)

Dr. Campbell breaks baby B's water and informs us that Baby B has done exactly what he is supposed to and dropped right down... They seem shocked it went so well... and tell me I can already push again with the next contraction... It seems like forever before there is another. Finally I can feel the contraction start and it is time to push- again... and Knox Greyson is born with that contraction at 3:52pm, five minutes after his brother.

This time Daddy is able to cut the cord ( he wasn't allowed with baby A) They sneak me a quick peek and Knox is off with the NICU team as well.

Kullens NICU staff calls over to tell us he is a whopping 6lbs 9ounces (That is HUGE for 36 week twins) They bring him over to me and tell me he is doing GREAT... He is a little pale and that when I see Knox it'll be clear who the donor and recipient twins were. Knox's NICU team calls over telling us he is 6lbs15ounces! Everyone is completely shocked by

a)how smoothly their birth went
b)how HUGE they both are and
c)how well they are doing.

Dr. Tsui informs us that it NEVER goes this well and she is just amazed.

NICU team 2 Brings Knox over, he is doing great as well, and I am able to hold both of my baby boys together for the first time! Holding both boys I knew what the NICU team meant when they said it was obvious who the donor and recipient twins were... Here I have pale Mr. Kullen, and Mr. Knox looks like a tomato! They detected the TAPS soon enough that there were absolutely NO problems aside from the drastic color difference.

Coming soon, The babies first 24 hours, and home coming!

Life.

Life gets very busy when youre expecting twins. It gets even busier when you have infant twins... So no explanation should be needed regarding my LOOOONG overdue posting.

August 2011, a very busy month in our house.

We went for our routine MFM appointment in Edmonton on August 11, 2011... the appointments we had been going to bi weekly since 20 weeks to monitor the babies... On August 11th was the first time we had had a less than stellar 'review' from the doctors.

Up until this point we were always told how EXCELLENT we were doing. On this day we were told that there were some concerns regarding baby A's bloodflow to his brain and they wanted us back in four days to check on them again. I left the appointment wanting to cry, we didnt know if there was a problem or not... but it was a big hit for me to go from being told every appointment how great the babies looked, to suddenly there may be a problem.

August 15th, 2011... we headed back up to the city for our followup... the shock of a possible problem had worn off by now and we were expecting to hear everything looked great and there was indeed no need for concern. After a very long ultrasound in which the tech struggled repeatedly to get any blood flow readings from baby A, and assuring us it was nothing, and then an even longer wait for the doctor... we were told that babies would need to be born the next day due to what they figured was TAPS . Twin Anemia Polycythemia sequence. A form of the TTTS which is what we had been watching for all along...

We drove the 2.5 hours home to pack a few things and make arrangements for the boys as we didnt know how long we would be in the city and how much extra care the babies would need once they were born... We were told to expect them to need blood transfusions and a NICU stay... so we were most definitely worried...and just wanted one more night at home with our other three babies :)

To be continued. I do after all have 5 kids to watch, so I have to keep blogging short! Coming soon, The big birthday!

Ready or not...

Today's post is going to be short and sweet. Ready or not... these babies will be here soon...

My main thought regarding that?

BABIES. as in plural.

I'm not sure that the shock/disbelief will ever wear off.

Sure I'm used to the idea.

However.

Last night as I lay in bed... with the pack n play set up bedside for when they make their arrival. I once again could not believe it is twins. Literally. How did this happen? LOL. I see them every two weeks on the ultrasound...I have two of almost everything... The boys have names. And yet I'm still having a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that very soon I will have not one. BUT TWO babies sleeping(hopefully) in the pack and play beside me. I've always had a hard time envisioning that there was indeed a tiny human being in my belly... now to know there is two in there. Still shocking. I'm not sure the reality of it will really sink in until they are in my arms... so for now I'm stocking up on baby stuff, and catching up on sleep.

In other news. Keaton and Kolby are at their Grandpas for the week so it has been just Kyler and I since Monday... It's pretty quiet- which I suppose is a good thing considering how noisy I'm sure things will be before I know it!

It's been a long time coming!!

A new blog post that is! Wow. Where to start? It has indeed been a very long time... and I’ve been a very busy lady.

So first for some updates!
1) I am 33weeks and 6days along. Up 34lbs. And my waist has grown to a gigantic 49 inches!
2) At our last ultrasound (which, if I am counting correctly is ultrasound #11) The boys were both doing great still, and measuring in at a whopping 4lbs 11ounces and 5lbs 3 ounces!
3) We have not had a SINGLE complication this pregnancy... no high blood pressure... no gestational diabetes...Pre-eclampsia...significant growth disparity or signs of the dreaded TTTS... Nothing.
Which I am SO thankful for considering the risk we are at with Baby A’s 2 vessel cord and them sharing a placenta
4) A few ‘interesting’ things we’ve seen at ultrasounds? One baby’s face right on the other ones butt. Baby A cracking baby B in the face repeatedly with his elbow... and Baby B was kicking his brother in the face at the last ultrasound.


How am I feeling?
Hmmm. Not sure! I feel great considering I’m carrying at LEAST 10lbs of baby right now! If anything my biggest issue is space... the babies are running out of it and things are starting to get quite painful. But I am not one to complain considering how much harder this pregnancy COULD have been on me. It’s just in the last month that I’ve really felt a need to slow down ( as hard as that may be for me!) Right around the 20 week mark I had some issues with severe pelvic pain that had me on the couch for a week or so... Then in June when the weather started getting really hot my feet started turning blue... Both of those issues thankfully went away. My current issue is the belly! If I lay too reclined on my back it is so heavy now it cuts off blood flow to that main artery that runs down your spine... we discovered this when during a NST my blood pressure plummeted to 70/40 or so If I remember correctly. SO- fun stuff! Not that you all care about these things... I just want to have a record of EVERYTHING so I don’t ever forget 

Are we ready?
We are as ready as we will ever be I suppose. How do you really prepare for Multiples? The nursery is ready... I’m stocked up on everything possible... so I think now it’s whether or not we’re mentally ready... which I am not- I’m still in the ‘I want my sleep and sanity’ phase. The boys all seem ready. Kyler talks to my belly daily telling babies he wants them to come out now... Keaton cant wait to see what they look like, and Kolby just loves to tell the babies he loves them. Tyson keeps saying he is ready and cant wait to see them... but I can already hear him complaining at 3am when I drag him out of bed to help me. LOL.

Have we picked names?
First names, Yes. We had Greyson and Garrett, Liam and Noah, Knox and Kayle, We decided on Knox and Kullen. Middle names still to be determined.

So that is sort of where we are at now. Any questions? Leave a comment and I'll try and answer them! I'm going to try to do a little blogging each day as an attempt to get caught up on the last couple months before babies get here... which could be any time!

We're still here

This is a photo of my 25.5 week baby bump! I'm hoping to get on here next week to do some updating... thing have been hectic here with the Doctors appointments... managing 3 boys... fitting all of my photography clients in before I'm done working at the end of June... and trying to landscape our yard.

Hoping to finally get around to a birthday post soon, and since I missed posting all THREE of the boys birthdays I'm going to share about all of them together :)

Change of plans

Since I last wrote...

-Got the call that the appointment was set up with the MFM specialist...For this PAST FRIDAY! That was WAY sooner than I was anticipating getting in!

-Had our MFM appointment/ultrasound... Two Ultrasounds in less than 2 weeks!

And we officially have a game plan!

Both babies 'look fine right now'
It looks as though we will be going up to Edmonton every two weeks from now on at a minimum... Our next appointment is Friday the 13th! Yikes! That appointment will be the same as this past one, but she is also having us go somewhere else to have a fetal echo(ultrasound) of both babies hearts that day...If all looks well then, she said that we will try to work out a plan so that I wont have to go there any more frequently than bi-weekly... we'll set it up so I still do all of my regular monitoring here and then am up there every second Friday.

We discussed delivering in Edmonton... and from the sounds of things... It looks like that is where that is going to happen...

There was a whole lot of, if this,
this
or this happens you will deliver in edmonton,
or this... and you'll deliver in Edmonton...
OR, Just because of all the risks associated with what we're dealing with,
we might just want you to deliver in Edmonton irregardless.

So we both got the inclination that she wants to deliver in Edmonton. I think I am still in denial about that...

I'm planning to make it as far as they'll let me (38weeks)... and then I'll deliver here... without a cesarian...

She also discussed possibly finding me an OB in Edmonton and then I'd have to do everything there... so really. Looks like we might be going up there quite a bit- which is a hassle... but if it means me delivering two healthy babies it is all worth it!

So that is where we are at right now.
at the last ultrasound baby B had caught up to A in size... Now this Ultrasound he was AHEAD of his brother by almost a week! I'm a little worried about that...but if they keep telling me all is fine then I'm going to trust them and go with the flow... I'm lucky enough to have them monitoring me very closely so It definitly puts my mind at ease!

Coming later this week. Less Medical mumbo jumbo baby talk... and more BOYS! Kyler got an early birthday gift and I've got some really cute photos of him showing it off!